GOD,
help me.
you know i need it.
i haven't exactly been doing all the right things. or playing my cards right.
but if anything.
i know that you're still there.

what charm said was right.
and these are really trying times for me.
and its really comforting to know that i have friend backing me up.

i know they love me.
and that pretty much what i need for now to get me through.

and i know someone is disappointed in me.
because i did something really stupid because it was the only thing i can think of doing at the point of time because my vision was so clouded and i needed to clear my head.
i know its not right.
but i did it.
but you told me that you love me for who i am.
and thats all i need.
i'm scared.
about alot of things.
and i wish i can tell you.
but not talking to you for so long has its effects.
i'm so sorry.
i just had a feeling that it wasn't meant to be like this.
but still.
i'm sorry for taking the path i did.